Thoughts on creativity
After creativity bursts I feel tired. Y gave me some good advice, which was to journal down my thoughts and feelings after doing a hard thing. I wrote some things down in my Hobonichi, but I'm waiting for a more substantial blog post to share it.
Recently I read the Roncy quiet book club's host's FB post detailing the event. It was a sweet and funny read. And she really included all the details! I felt touched to hear that she appreciates my sensitivity to beauty based on a quote I selected.
I'm thinking of setting up my own "Ann's Room" series of photographs - a highly intimate project that was inspired by an instagram post I saw about "Girls Room Diary - the soft architecture of Japanese girlhood". Stuff like that really inspires me.
In other news The Yeti protein shaker bottle came and it is glorious. I used to think going to the gym or doing any sort of exercise class was below me, that I could just become fit through willpower alone. Now I've began to humbly pay money in exchange for such services.
The peony on our coffee table is exploding its petals wide open.
Having a baby is insanely easy, now that I see all my friends doing it. The impact of the baby on their lives looms quietly in the background as we share our days full of mundane things happening.
In a similar vein to my fitness journey, I also wonder, what is my goal when I am being creative? (I used to hate putting the 2 concepts of "goals" and "creativity" together) I used to "go with the flow" whenever I drew or painted, and I think I subscribed too heavily to the laissez faire attitude that our generation and the younger generations had. It was an attitude that advocated strongly for self-respect, personal and creative freedom. Too heavily for me meant that this attitude would bypass my need for a logical, organized approach to creating. The small voice of "hey, what's our plan for this once finished?" was constantly being pushed down.
Anyways, this is all really abstract. I now prefer living in the here and now, and doing what I want with my time. There's not a lot of inspiration floating around inside my head nowadays, and I'm learning to accept that.